I'm absolutely royally pissed off.
I dont, fucking, get it.
I'm a nice guy, right, there are absolute twats who are in better situations than me.
Im not gona whine and moan anymore, just gota sort it out. Moaning never helped anybody.
Find light in the darkness. Find inspiration in isolation.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Bland
A much needed non eventful day today.
Went to work, came home, slept, Fifa, youtube. In that order.
Not much to say really, enjoyed today, Can't make a bed! It's hard tryin to do it the way they want, much more practice needed.
RIP Wendy Richard (Pauline - Eastenders).
Busier day tomorrow. Don't know if I'll go out tomorrow night..Sarah and Harriet want to though.
Nothing inspiring to say today. Still hopeful.
Went to work, came home, slept, Fifa, youtube. In that order.
Not much to say really, enjoyed today, Can't make a bed! It's hard tryin to do it the way they want, much more practice needed.
RIP Wendy Richard (Pauline - Eastenders).
Busier day tomorrow. Don't know if I'll go out tomorrow night..Sarah and Harriet want to though.
Nothing inspiring to say today. Still hopeful.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Free bird
Today has been a busy day by my standards. Wor 7-2:30, swimming 3:15 - 4:15, then good times 5:30 - 9:45. Am shattered.
So, I dont know, I think its going good..then somethin will happen so I think its bad. I think it's going bad, then something will happen that makes it good. I sortof like it, as long as it eventually turns out good. Some people are like closed books. I find it intriguing to unlocking personalities, only good ones though.
But I know I'm definitly enjoying it, thats been confirmed today.
Been listening to the Blink 182 last album, its better than I remembered..and They're coming back! Sweet.
Not going outt for a while, fucking work.
EPIC moment today at work.
A patient's daughter came in, saw her dad, and sat down on a chair next to him. She got in close, looked at him, 'Dad...Dad it's me', Then she took off her glasses, let down her hair..there was a silence.
Then all of a sudden he hugged her, he was crying, she was crying, Sarah was crying, I er... wasn't crying... Well nobody was crying, just read eyes and a tear or two. Because he recognised her, and that must be such a special feeling in that circumstance.
This world is cruel, and the majority of the world don't see the things I have seen, I don't know if that is a good or bad thing.
No quotes today, none needed.
So, I dont know, I think its going good..then somethin will happen so I think its bad. I think it's going bad, then something will happen that makes it good. I sortof like it, as long as it eventually turns out good. Some people are like closed books. I find it intriguing to unlocking personalities, only good ones though.
But I know I'm definitly enjoying it, thats been confirmed today.
Been listening to the Blink 182 last album, its better than I remembered..and They're coming back! Sweet.
Not going outt for a while, fucking work.
EPIC moment today at work.
A patient's daughter came in, saw her dad, and sat down on a chair next to him. She got in close, looked at him, 'Dad...Dad it's me', Then she took off her glasses, let down her hair..there was a silence.
Then all of a sudden he hugged her, he was crying, she was crying, Sarah was crying, I er... wasn't crying... Well nobody was crying, just read eyes and a tear or two. Because he recognised her, and that must be such a special feeling in that circumstance.
This world is cruel, and the majority of the world don't see the things I have seen, I don't know if that is a good or bad thing.
No quotes today, none needed.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
The road..
So today I got up at 6:15, out the house at 6:40, drove like Michael Schumacher, and got to wor for 6.58. Nice.
Its nice getting patients up, they're a bit grumpy but you see a different side to them, I HATE getting woke up so I know how they feel.
S h i t t i n g it tomorrow! Yep yep. I have a feeling its gona go a bit better than last time though, which was fine. Don't order muscles, and stop talking about Tom Hanks..
And I don't know the football scores, although Ben's potentially ruined it anyway.
This blog is well boring today isn't it. Although I read an awesome quote last night I'd like to share.
"..two roads diverged in a wood, and I -- I took the one less traveled by,And that has made all the difference." - Robert Frost.
Awe-Some. Agree?
Its nice getting patients up, they're a bit grumpy but you see a different side to them, I HATE getting woke up so I know how they feel.
S h i t t i n g it tomorrow! Yep yep. I have a feeling its gona go a bit better than last time though, which was fine. Don't order muscles, and stop talking about Tom Hanks..
And I don't know the football scores, although Ben's potentially ruined it anyway.
This blog is well boring today isn't it. Although I read an awesome quote last night I'd like to share.
"..two roads diverged in a wood, and I -- I took the one less traveled by,And that has made all the difference." - Robert Frost.
Awe-Some. Agree?
Monday, February 23, 2009
The work begins..
I got up early today... 7:55 urgh... whats all that about
My first day at Placement number 2...well I dont have much of an impression..good or bad really.
The patients are nice, Sarahs with me...my mentor is niice, but some of the staff haven't even made an effort to talk to us yet..and the way they seem to handle the patients is a bit harsh, if it was my Grandad, I would not be happy.
And the works piling up. 2 essays, 5 Performance Criteria,a weekend and the odd few nightshifts thrown in just to kick me in the teeth.
But aside from that, Wednesday is another important day, It will be easier, i'll show another side of myself I think. We will see.
Those little Indian kids winning those oscars...lol, i don't know..i just don't know.
My first day at Placement number 2...well I dont have much of an impression..good or bad really.
The patients are nice, Sarahs with me...my mentor is niice, but some of the staff haven't even made an effort to talk to us yet..and the way they seem to handle the patients is a bit harsh, if it was my Grandad, I would not be happy.
And the works piling up. 2 essays, 5 Performance Criteria,a weekend and the odd few nightshifts thrown in just to kick me in the teeth.
But aside from that, Wednesday is another important day, It will be easier, i'll show another side of myself I think. We will see.
Those little Indian kids winning those oscars...lol, i don't know..i just don't know.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
All I need...
Well.
Er.
Did I sink or swim? I dont know, Part of me sank and part of me paddled. I'm awaiting a txt that will make me happy or sad. How have I got myself in this position? Thats a story to be told another day.
Right Rob, focus, essay, and get my mind right to start 7 weeks of 37.5 hr shifts a week :-(
Damn.
I have to just get on with it, knuckle down, work hard.
Argh my hearts beating fast.
Er.
Did I sink or swim? I dont know, Part of me sank and part of me paddled. I'm awaiting a txt that will make me happy or sad. How have I got myself in this position? Thats a story to be told another day.
Right Rob, focus, essay, and get my mind right to start 7 weeks of 37.5 hr shifts a week :-(
Damn.
I have to just get on with it, knuckle down, work hard.
Argh my hearts beating fast.
From fear through the eyes of madness
Thursday was a weird night. A good one, a bad one, then a good one again. I don't think things through or fully realise the consequences of my actions until they happen, and for that i'm extremely sorry.
Enough about that.
So I drank way too much and my tripple threat night out (see blog number 2) turned into just the one night. I've missed Sarah's party and im gutted :-( But i'll see her Monday to apoligise.
Iv'e been watching 'The oddysey' on youtube, I watched it as a kid and didn't realise how grown up it is...It's about a kid who falls from a tree and becomes unconscious...and then hes in another world with his friends and enemies looking for his dad (who isnt really dead whoaaa), it sounds lame but its awesome. I wana go to Vancouver? Anyone ever been?
Iv'e done a bit more of my essay, It's like a badly crafted jigsaw puzzle at the moment, but hopefully it will all come together. A bit like life! (Most philopsophical thing ive written so far Wahey)
Iv'e eaten nothing but junk this weekend and tomorrow (nervous gulp) im gonna eat some more. Tomorrow is going to be a do or die, sink or swim. I usually sink when the chips or down. But..
Did Rocky Sink? Fuck no he didn't! He kicked some ass! Does Rocky ever sink? Well yes, in Rocky 5 (BUT We dont talk about that) . Did Rocky still kick ass in Rocky 5? Yes, yes he did.
Rocky is my ultimate favourite film, I can't say which one I like the most because they're all (Not 5) very very good. Those montages..although a little homosexual, are extremely motivating.
Oh yeah, I did a mini drunken poll, and asked like ..6 people and an 'Obviously gay man sitting next to me (Lauren Greenwood quote) if they preffered South Park or Family Guy..the results were quite disgusting! Everyone preffered Family Guy...I mean cerial..whats all that about?
Okay i'm done.
Err W.O.L wisdom of the day :
A warrior of light knows he has much to be grateful for. Angels help him in his struggle, celestial forces place each thing in its place, thus allowing him to give it his best.
His companions say 'He's so lucky!' And the warrior does sometimes achieve things far beyond his capabilities.
That is why at sunset, he kneels and gives thanks for the protective cloak surrounding him.
His gratitude, however is not limited to the spiritual world; he never forgets his friends, for their blood mixes with his on the battlefield.
A warrior does not need to be reminded of the help given him by others. He is the first to remember and he makes sure to share with them any rewards he recieves.
Enough about that.
So I drank way too much and my tripple threat night out (see blog number 2) turned into just the one night. I've missed Sarah's party and im gutted :-( But i'll see her Monday to apoligise.
Iv'e been watching 'The oddysey' on youtube, I watched it as a kid and didn't realise how grown up it is...It's about a kid who falls from a tree and becomes unconscious...and then hes in another world with his friends and enemies looking for his dad (who isnt really dead whoaaa), it sounds lame but its awesome. I wana go to Vancouver? Anyone ever been?
Iv'e done a bit more of my essay, It's like a badly crafted jigsaw puzzle at the moment, but hopefully it will all come together. A bit like life! (Most philopsophical thing ive written so far Wahey)
Iv'e eaten nothing but junk this weekend and tomorrow (nervous gulp) im gonna eat some more. Tomorrow is going to be a do or die, sink or swim. I usually sink when the chips or down. But..
Did Rocky Sink? Fuck no he didn't! He kicked some ass! Does Rocky ever sink? Well yes, in Rocky 5 (BUT We dont talk about that) . Did Rocky still kick ass in Rocky 5? Yes, yes he did.
Rocky is my ultimate favourite film, I can't say which one I like the most because they're all (Not 5) very very good. Those montages..although a little homosexual, are extremely motivating.
Oh yeah, I did a mini drunken poll, and asked like ..6 people and an 'Obviously gay man sitting next to me (Lauren Greenwood quote) if they preffered South Park or Family Guy..the results were quite disgusting! Everyone preffered Family Guy...I mean cerial..whats all that about?
Okay i'm done.
Err W.O.L wisdom of the day :
A warrior of light knows he has much to be grateful for. Angels help him in his struggle, celestial forces place each thing in its place, thus allowing him to give it his best.
His companions say 'He's so lucky!' And the warrior does sometimes achieve things far beyond his capabilities.
That is why at sunset, he kneels and gives thanks for the protective cloak surrounding him.
His gratitude, however is not limited to the spiritual world; he never forgets his friends, for their blood mixes with his on the battlefield.
A warrior does not need to be reminded of the help given him by others. He is the first to remember and he makes sure to share with them any rewards he recieves.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Tripple Threat night! 1/3
Hello all/Myself
Well i'm excited.
I'm going out tonight with young Ben, Lauren and Harriet for a night of drink, laughter and glaring (Only ben will do that) I have to take it easy because I'm going out Friday and Saturday too. Which I think is one of the only times ive gone out 3 times in a row...I can drink a lot but I have no stamina the next day and always feel rough..anyway I digress.
Today my aunt and nan came oveerrr, how nice. Was a laugh playing with the kids (not like that) Makes me think I want one of my own, but one day, not yet, nowhere near ready for that.
I haven't done my essay and Iv'e played too much Playstation today...
And I pissed someone off last night and I dont quite know what I did and now she's blocked and deleted me off everything! Harsh times...harsh times :(
But i'm generally in a good mood, off to the gym now, I hate waiting for the machines. The massive muscular guys just sit on the machines..sweating all over them..they don't even use them half of the time.
In other such exciting news, I thought my MP3 player was broke...but I had to press the reset button and it worked again. Best news ever.
Ok, i'll be a bit more deep and philosophical on my blogs soon I promise, i know its a bit dull.
Well i'm excited.
I'm going out tonight with young Ben, Lauren and Harriet for a night of drink, laughter and glaring (Only ben will do that) I have to take it easy because I'm going out Friday and Saturday too. Which I think is one of the only times ive gone out 3 times in a row...I can drink a lot but I have no stamina the next day and always feel rough..anyway I digress.
Today my aunt and nan came oveerrr, how nice. Was a laugh playing with the kids (not like that) Makes me think I want one of my own, but one day, not yet, nowhere near ready for that.
I haven't done my essay and Iv'e played too much Playstation today...
And I pissed someone off last night and I dont quite know what I did and now she's blocked and deleted me off everything! Harsh times...harsh times :(
But i'm generally in a good mood, off to the gym now, I hate waiting for the machines. The massive muscular guys just sit on the machines..sweating all over them..they don't even use them half of the time.
In other such exciting news, I thought my MP3 player was broke...but I had to press the reset button and it worked again. Best news ever.
Ok, i'll be a bit more deep and philosophical on my blogs soon I promise, i know its a bit dull.
First Blog
Hi everyone (or nobody, im sure will read this!)
Well its my first blog, Lauren and Ben (Friends) are doin it so I thought i'd try it and see if it helped anything or ..well i dont know, It might be fun.
So the basics: I'm Rob, 21, A mental health nurse student (Go on, laugh) in my first year, enjoying it so far but I haven't started my essays yet..
Erm im at the gym and swimming a lot of the time to full my days and take my mind off a lot of stuff in the recent past...tryin to keep active and tryin to better myself. Life is indeed a challenge and I thought I'd conquered it but it just throws up more obstacles when you least expect them.
Theres a lot more to say but it's quite late and if you are going to follow this blog, you'd be mad too, but i'll add more about me as I go along.
Tomorrow:
Library
Buy swimming trunks (not speedos...)
Go to the gym
Go out and get slightly drunk
....Nice
Well its my first blog, Lauren and Ben (Friends) are doin it so I thought i'd try it and see if it helped anything or ..well i dont know, It might be fun.
So the basics: I'm Rob, 21, A mental health nurse student (Go on, laugh) in my first year, enjoying it so far but I haven't started my essays yet..
Erm im at the gym and swimming a lot of the time to full my days and take my mind off a lot of stuff in the recent past...tryin to keep active and tryin to better myself. Life is indeed a challenge and I thought I'd conquered it but it just throws up more obstacles when you least expect them.
Theres a lot more to say but it's quite late and if you are going to follow this blog, you'd be mad too, but i'll add more about me as I go along.
Tomorrow:
Library
Buy swimming trunks (not speedos...)
Go to the gym
Go out and get slightly drunk
....Nice
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