New Year - New start? No chance.

To most people, New Years is one of a few things

1) A chance for a new start - to make promises and to try to live their life with a new perspective, new goals.

2) A chance to start afresh, and forget the past year.

3)A chance to get pissed.

I have no problem with 1) people who believe that the new year is a new start, they take up gym memberships, quit smoking, truly believe they are going to embark on a brand new start in this new year.

However, most people, as soon as February and March comes, cancel that gym membership, buy that fresh packet of cigarettes, and go back to their abusive ex lover, falling into their old traps.

For those in category number 2. Fair enough. Some things happen over the course of the year that we must try to block out and get over.

And to those 3) who see it as an excuse to get pissed then um, yeah, nice one.

I don't want to sound like a overly optimistic twat, but I believe that every day can be a new start, and is certainly a new opportunity, but telling that to most people just gets the reaction of rolled eyes and blank stares.

So no, I don't like new years in its entirety, but if it helps you, then so be it.

May you be granted a journey of renewal and hope; a time of prayer and reflection

Community nursing and what not to watch

So I started my #4Th placement last Monday. Community nursing.

Going to peoples houses and...talking to them? Seeing if there is something wrong...I think?

I'm being looked after by two mentor's, they re both very similar. They overwhelm me with information and then I cannot think what to ask, what to say, what to comment. I end up with 'oh really? oh OK' and feel a bit of an idiot. They said I need to ask more questions, but I don't quite know what to ask.

Is it my fault or theirs? Both.

I should have a greater subject knowledge by now, but having said that, all of my other mental health placements have been in a mental health hospital, actually looking after patients

Community nursing is completely different, so it feels as though I'm having to learn and to start all over again. It's very similar to social work. I do Not want to be a social worker.

I have gained confidence, but the bar just keeps getting higher. I'll appreciate this in a few years time, no doubt.

Anyway.

Do not watch paranormal activity. I sat through it, laughed and mocked it.But it seems it's left a subconscious chilling feeling in me. I keep waking up and thinking threes a spirit in the room. My dreams seem cursed too.

One time a few years ago, I had a dream which I don't remember what happened, I only know the feeling. A feeling of real dread, it was chilling. I believe I experienced a small, minuscule feeling of evil.

In the next week I felt an overpowering good feeling in a dream, again which I cannot remember. My whole body was tingling and I woke up feeling ready for the world and feeling blessed. I believe I experienced a small, minute feeling of good.

I'm just plugging away at this now, working hard, playing a fair amount. Life will improve, just believe it.

Oh and, whoever you are, watch this. Your very much welcome.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GEkz1XK75XE