Good morning sunshine, I look as the sun hits the sky

My close friend is getting better. My fingers are crossed and I am praying for you.


Gotta have my injection tomorrow, Heptitius B injection 3. I can't believe that some student nurses keep fainting because of injections.That doesn't make sence at all.

I'm kicking ass on placement. The patients love me and now the rest of the staff are seeming to like me. I got the most riskiest patient up, dressed and showered, all up on my own. *Blows own trumpet*

Stay until Wednesday
And write me a child like letter pretending.
I saw you on Thursday
Lets make it the last day at home by the fiiiree..

Gloom

Not a good day.

Someone close to me is not very well, it's upsetting other people. I hope tomorrow goes well.

Anyway.

My laptops broke.

And I have work to do.

And I send a strongly worded email to my lecturer, she deserved it

Outside...boundary lines

Howdy.

Feeling pretty decent at the moment, 2 weeks left and i'll be ready.

So still working hard, both in work and in my personal life.

the best thing ever came through the post on Wednesday. The best. thing. ever http://www.amazon.co.uk/Neverender-Children-Fence-Coheed-Cambria/dp/B001QU0WGA/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=music&qid=1238355342&sr=8-1

80 beans well spent.

Not a lot else to say..well there is loads to say but never enough time.

Id love to freeze time for a year or two.

Wandering, Pondering,

I'm feeling optimistic one moment, pesimistic the next. Have you ever felt that way? It's strange, usually it's one or the other, now it seems a big contrast of emotions.

I've acknowledged that I need my friends now. Iv'e had my alone time, now I think it may be time for my friends.

I may be out on Thursday, if Ben and Ross keep their word, but we'll see, plans can change between now and then, but thats cool.

Had my haircut today, I think I look better with hair, but I always feel good when my hair is cut, its like...I dunno, a mini-new start. Is that lame? It's probably lame isn't it.

I feel like i'm growing a lot from my nursing, I'm already showing people what to do, and I definitly feel like it's the right career path. Sidney's family sent us a card saying thankyou for all the work, and thankyou for allowing Sidney's last moments to be peaceful.

Thats what it's all about.

Be patient, he said

A funny thing happened to me today as I was walking to my car after worked, it's happened before but iv'e never really listened.

I was talking outloud about what I wanted and needed, and then I said to myself..be patient, It was like the Lord was talking through me, be patient he said. I realised how self-centred and selfish I sounded, demanding all of these things. Just because it comes easy to a lot of people, doesn't mean I have any right for it to come easy for me. Nothing of value comes easy.
And so I realise that it isn't the right time to have what I want, because I have had it all once, and I wasn't happy then. Maybe Paolo Coelho is right. As a warrior of light, it is the struggle, not the outcome that matters.

It is the journey, not the destination.



You know when you hear but you just don't listen. The world, as a whole, should listen more.

Heart of darkness

I'm in quite a cheery mood.

Although, I haven't been out in forever! Im missing the social life.

Im lonely but im determined, its a time of opposites for me.

Iv'e bought the film 'Heart of Darkness' it looks good, so imma watch it.

Oh..

Rest In peice Jade Goody.

My team, The deceased and a nice long weekend.

First off.

Rest in peice Sidney. You were one of my favourite people I have ever met, you were funny and sarcastic. I'm glad you are now in a better place, back to normal, and able to walk again!
I'll never forget the conversations we had about the Gustapo, the Japanese, and Samurai's. Iv'e learned a lot about you and I hope you are safe and happy now sir.

My nan is also suffering from what I think is depression, it's awful but i'm glad I didn't go to see her today, I wouldn't have liked to see her the way she is. I hope she improves, I really do.

On a better note, I'm kicking asss with my new Fifa 09 team.

Iv'e created the Warriors of Light (obviously) and we're one of the best in the world (no joke). Im spending all of my 3 day weekend on it! I know its slightly lame but at the moment nobody is going out much, so I need to keep myself busy.

I'm also concerned how im liking angry gangster rap now, how strange.


Rest in peice that poor woman who died skiing, I hope my ski friends never have that tragedy befall them.


Also i'm reading this awesome book, more to follow.

Hard working

I'm working like a bitch.

At the hospital and at the gym.

Using the pain to my advantage.

"I'm not the two, not the three, not the four, the five, I Take the pain from my life, pour it all inside".


Keeping focused on my goals.

Shifts and excersis

I feel a bit better today. I'm quite tired from all the work iv'e been doing, and have just been to the gym and feel a lot better. Theres something about excersise that connects me to the world around me and to the big man upstairs..it's weird, but it feels like its something natural and it just feels healthy to sweat and push yourself.

I've been doing early, late, and weekend shifts..they never seem to end! Only 4 weeks left though.

Congladutation to Sarah for passing her driving test.


My life at the moment feels like its the early stages of a Rocky montage.

I find a strange comfort in that.

Work and Sarah Michelle Geller

I have a lot of work to do, but my mentor is sick and theres not much I can do.. I don't get stressed about work very often...and this is no different.

One of my favourite books I have ever read is being made into a film...although its starring Sarah Michelle Geller...

Interestingly (or not) enough, this book helped about 40% into me starting my training as a mental health nurse.

Heres a trailer: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MEhc4yVuT2s

Awesome.

If anyone wants to see it with me, please please let me know. Id love to watch it with you =) and explain the book etc.


Im not going out for a few weeks, It will do me good I think. Need to learn about myself and alter a few things.

Oh...and, the greatest footballer of all time ( I said it) has made his third comeback in his career. Looking a bit chubbier and sporting an afro, he did it again..look at the support he gets from his fans.
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/video/video.php?v=55591269737
Truly a moving moment.

The comeback

Just like Jesus died, he came back.

Just like Rocky lost, he came back.

I am not Jesus or Rocky.

But the sentiment is there.
That is all.